Process After Stagnation

There are so many gears turning. Where to start: mentally, things are good. I'm creating ways to keep me sharp, keep me challenged. Spiritually, things are incredible. I'm not exactly sure what I'm believing in these days, but I do believe that's good enough to keep me relatively kind. Emotionally, I'm a kid. I like to think I'm evolved and enlightened, but let's be real, I hold on to stupid shit for too long, and it's difficult. Physically, my knees are better than they were 6 months ago after UPS tried to destroy me. I'm off nicotine patches and not smoking cigarettes. I haven't smoked weed in over a week. And, I woke up this morning angry, not in a bad way, but in a motivated way. It's time. It's time to accomplish all the dreams.

FINALLY!!!!!

Ladies and gentlemen, her name is V.

A New Hope

I don't know if this is the fourth episode, but I'm at a new property with the worker from Atmos Energy who is cooking up the gas. This house is gonna take some significant work, but I'm in it to win it. Imma do me. Watch me do me. And you just do you, lil homie.

Anticipating Homecoming

This is almost 22 years ago as I post this. 

https://youtu.be/6g_m1e_Uqpk?si=JiRC1aB8Ofz8RDPL

I loved the inconvenience that life up there forces you to have. I loved the time it gave me with my thoughts and my friends, and I miss having to take ferries to the airport.

Everything is Wet in Ketchikan

https://youtu.be/B90O42-EYhY?si=bCP8ueMPCDLCDeQX

The month of October is usually the worst month in Southeast Alaska from my experience. That's the month we got FEET of rain and it all came in sideways. It wasn't fun to go out, but it was always incredibly fun to stay in. I did enjoy the weight of the air in my lungs, though. The musty comfort all around was palpable, like a blanket of air.

Eldorado Canyon

Eldorado Canyon!

I created this video in the late-2000s. I was climbing with my friend and mentor Ryan, who I still consider a good friend to this day. Eldorado Canyon is a magic place if you have any interest or experience in rock climbing, it's probably the second most important single place in North America behind Yosemite and thus, Mecca. Check it out when you can, and bring a helmet.

The Whirlwind

It's been a crazy summer. We've gone on hikes, to national parks, movies, parties, BBQs, road trips, back road trips, side road trips, and all sorts of crazy things. It's been a Duesey, for sure.

The Homestead

It's been a journey lately. My parents have been out of town since the end of last month. We've been watching their house, which has allowed the kids to camp in an actual yard. It's also given us fresh eggs, and privacy. It's been lovely. 

Accomplishment

I love you when you can invest time into something and see a reward. I spent the last week in Phoenix training to be a UPS driver. I passed everything today, and it's go time. Can't wait to see what's in store for me in the future.

Working For It

Today, I started training for driving for UPS. It was incredibly difficult, but I feel like we are gonna be okay. I'll memorize stuff, for sure.

The New Car Vibe

We got ourselves a new scout shuttle: a Nissan Rogue. We are stoked for the addition to our family, a Battle Scout, ready for action.

Decisions and Derision

Lately, I've been struggling to find purpose in life. I've spent most of my time trying to find an answer, a meaning. It's been rough, and I've spent a lot of time in states of frustration and depression. It's been difficult. 

I stick to my lists, my rules, my own personal code, and try hard not to push my values on others. My celebration has been tempered with wisdom that includes others more than offends them. 

But it's hard, and it seems like, looking for faith, those with the most of it are also the most unkind. So, with Star Trek my moral compass stays, believing in that brand of hope over the things on this Earth I can't control.

Ugh

I really don't have an update on the blog life, so here's Admiral James Kirk.